Are You Ready to Tackle the Mommy Makeover Challenge?

Do you feel as if life is passing you by and one day drags into the other? Do you sometimes yell at your babies or just wish everyone would leave you alone? Maybe you don't recognize the person in the mirror or your marriage is hanging by a thread. I'm not claiming that I am an expert but I will admit that I have been the mom that didn't want to drag herself off the couch, fed her kids pop tarts or grits for two or three meals in a row because it was just easier, cried herself to sleep or just cried all day and yes there were numerous days that I never saw the inside of the shower.. It took a while to pull myself out of that hole that I had sunk into. I had no friends or family nearby and I know that I was a horrible mother during that time. What  I want you to know is that you're not alone. 

I am no longer that woman. I do still struggle with my attitude about housework. That is a work in progress. I do still struggle with keeping my patience when all of the kids come at me at once. But today I have a mostly clean home, I am moving a little each day, I create meal plans, coupon, greet my kids with a smile after school and try to give them my complete attention with they are home. I no longer wait days to take a shower but I don't always put on makeup or fix my hair beyond a ponytail. That is something I want to work on.

I've put together this blog to help those that are looking for help and looking for hope. There weren't a lot of blogs out there when my oldest two were little and the feeling of loneliness, failure and often times pure despair were just overwhelming. 

You are not alone. You can change. You are worth it. Your kids are worth it. 

Mommy Makeover Reboot

It's been a while since I've written for this site but I thought it would be a good time to check in and start over.  When I started this blog a few years ago my goals were:

Annual goals: Deadline December 21, 2010

Home: new house

Spiritual: a sense of peace and spiritual understanding

Financial: debt free except for one car and home

Health: lose 50 lbs. eat only foods that are good for me

Marriage: renewed relationship with my husband

Children: better relationship with kids, they are more responsible and treat each other better

Career:  having released 6 books, earning $4000 per month

I have checked off a few of those. We have a new house. We have only one car payment and about half of our debt is paid down. More would be gone but we have been detoured with braces and surgery bills. So all in all we are doing pretty awesome in that department.

My spiritual life is still a work in progress. My weight is still here. My marriage is quite a bit better than it was and we're still working on it. My children get along better and I am learning to adjust from the little years to the teen and pre-teen years. It's weird to transition from conversations with a teen to a 6 year old so that's something new.

The career thing has it's ups and downs. I currently have six books out in varying genres but I'm not quite pulling in that $4000 a month. 

I tell you all of this to tell you that it's okay to fall down. It's okay to fail. The key is to get back up, dust yourself off and move forward. That's what this blog is for. 

New goals for September 2013-September 2014:

Home: refinished inside and landscaping outside (while very livable upstairs the house needs paint and new carpet or hardwood to replace the 30+ year old carpet, the basement needs to bed finished off)

Spiritual: continue searching for a spiritual connection

Financial: press towards being debt free so that we can have the freedom to vacation and do more as a family

Health: better health and 50-60 lbs smaller

Marriage: to get back my best friend

Children: teaching them to be productive citizens while showing them unconditional love

Career: publish 6-12 books and begin earning $4000-$8000 a month

I will confess that I am much more productive than I was a few years ago. I don't let the cleaning go forever and I am able to make decent meals most of the time. Some days get away from me but learning what I was doing with my time and how much I was letting go really hit me hard. I must confess that I feel guilty about the way life was when my kids were smaller. They are still small but the oldest is almost 15 and I feel as if I have soooo screwed her up because of my depression and the constant chaos during the first half of her life. My goal this year is to truly reconnect with her and to forgive myself of the guilt that sometimes threatens to overwhelm me. 

What are your goals?